Times come when we might just feel like things are spinning a little out of control - or at least out of our control. Those times can be disconcerting and might just send us into a tailspin if we don't maintain the right focus. There are always moments in each day when I cry out a short prayer to Jesus just because things seem to be creeping in that are capable of disturbing the control which has been maintained - because I don't want that control to go to anyone else other than him!
Every morning you'll hear me at it again. Every morning I lay out the pieces of my life on your altar and watch for fire to descend. (Psalm 5:2-3)
Some days just seek like chaos is created wherever we go. Yet, if we look closely, the very thing that is the same in each of those situations is US. Where we are, there is chaos. True that it may be that God brings good stuff out of chaos, we don't want to be the thing creating that chaos. Some of us feel like all that God is up to in and around us is chaos. King David was no exception. He frequently conversed with God about the "stuff" that just seemed to surround him with all kinds of challenge, busy-work, and unknown outcomes. Every morning you'll hear me at it again! These words reflect his response to the mounting chaos around him.
I honestly believe we might think God gets tired hearing about our lives. After all, how many times does he need to hear that we are frustrated with our pain, or disappointed with the loss of our youthfulness? How many times does he need to listen to the "stories" of our waywardness? How often has he heard the same story of repentance, only to hear us at it again in a short matter of time? The "chaos" just seems to keep coming - and we just seem to keep bringing it before God. Why? Because we can!
Every morning I lay out the pieces of my life on your altar and watch for fire to descend. Remember we are to come EVERY morning to God. There is to be no fear in our heart that God will get tired of hearing from us or be put off by the continual struggles we have! Lay it all out before God...holding nothing back. That is how a sacrifice was prepared in Old Testament times - it was laid out for all the pieces to be seen. Sometimes, we'd like to hold a little back, but it is in laying it all out that it is available for God to affect.
If that doesn't paint the picture, we need to see that it is in the laying of the pieces on the altar that that we express our hope for the changes we desire to occur. Why is this important? Simply because the altar is the ONLY place we can actually be altered! It is the laying out of our lives that God is able to affect change - to bring order out of what looks like nothing more than chaos! Do it and then wait watchfully for God's fire to descend. This is the hardest part of bringing it to God - waiting watchfully for his move! Nothing is more of a struggle for us than waiting. In the waiting, we want nothing more than to retrieve a few pieces off the altar and tuck them carefully away for "another time". The sacrifice is only consumed if it is whole!
So, if life seems a little like CHAOS right now...don't lose hope! It probably is! In that CHAOS God is at work bringing something beautiful out of it. CHAOS is really Christ Having Authority Over Sin in our lives. CHAOS is really Christ Honoring Abandoned Obedient Service. CHAOS is Christ Healing And Opening Spirits. CHAOS is simply God at work! Embrace it! It has a purpose far greater than you'd ever imagine! Just sayin!